wAtS gOiN' oN iN thE wOrLd 2dAY?

...pictures ain't worth much...

2012-01-30T08:28:00.001+08:00

Just as I knew...my pictures don't worth much...

...tears of the sun...

2011-12-30T12:42:00.001+08:00

You never wiped away my tears :'( ... All you did is scold me like a child to stop crying~

...iamReady...

2011-11-05T21:23:00.001+08:00

Im willing to let go...

Am not gg to keep having any heartbreaks...

Am not gg to keep loving and receive nothing in return...

...TryHarder...

2011-11-04T07:21:00.001+08:00

Your kohjidmal FAILED badly...

...iAmLaughingAtYou...

2011-11-04T06:36:00.001+08:00

What a low lying fox... I knew it... Everything was TRUE!

I wasn't Wrong!

Too many lies...what a joke those kekon ppl live... Why not just separate or divorced?? So its easier to connect with the person u trust everyday 24/7?! The first person you look for is a namja...what a cheap fox!

...kohjidmal...

2011-11-03T14:37:00.001+08:00

Nan...arrayeo...

...ticToc...

2011-11-01T13:36:00.001+08:00

For how long do I hv to be like this...? Knowing and yet no actions..Deep inside I know I am AFRAID.. :(

...IamNotBothered...

2011-10-31T23:04:00.001+08:00

I truly knows that we have no control what others wanna do... But I do know that I can control my doings...

It doesn't matter what you know...If it has been a habit let it be...I cannot be bothered to think highly of yourself.. I don't look at you the same way...sorry no way I will...U can have your status but you're LOW in my eyes...

Thank you for opening my eyes to see what I couldn't see...

...laughing stock...

2011-10-29T17:28:00.001+08:00

Today I've learnt another new thing...MARRRIED women at where I am right now...like to stick to other men... Don't they know their statuses?

Laughed to myself at what I saw just now...

...WAJ...

2011-10-28T09:52:00.001+08:00

The joke's on YOU...mind your OWN business! Our status are not the same! MYOB!

Don't act with me! Im not stupid what your doing!

...?!...

2011-10-28T07:45:00.001+08:00

Am not a school kid not to know whats gg on around me... Am not stupid... Are you plotting to stab me in the back?!

What a joke and wat a LIAR!

...Its U...

2011-10-27T16:01:00.001+08:00

Don't laugh at me when you are infact laughing at yourself...what a joke!

...360*Turn...

2011-10-26T22:50:00.001+08:00

Hmmm....hmmm

...the OLD you...

2011-08-07T02:04:00.002+08:00

Memories of ME & YOU makes me REAL sad...

TEARS of happiness and tears of sadness all in one...

I wish I could turn back time and cherish all those moments with you...

I still LOVE you with all my heart eventhough your not the man I knew anymore...

My love for you will always remains the same...

:'(

...remembrance...

2011-07-23T14:58:00.001+08:00

Shall forget 23.07.09 ever happened when tomorrow comes...

Its just a date...no importance.

...my pact...

2011-07-01T17:48:00.001+08:00

I will be selfish for my own happiness...

If its somebody that has been blocking it...we will forever remain as we are now...

I will not give in for anyone...

...with my TWO feet...

2011-06-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

Take me for granted and I will just walk away.. No turning back.

...I Don't CARE...

2011-06-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

You can lie all you want..

I AM NOT STUPID.

...the wait...

2011-05-08T18:03:00.002+08:00

What do I get from all this? Patiently understanding your work...not even a msg of sweet words in return..

All I got is scolding..and my feelings are all lies!

It saddened me for you to even think that way... :(

Whats the point of doing my best when I don't receive anything from my effort?

All I was, was this bad girl who always don't understand your needs and always recall everything I did.

Do you even understand how I feel? My feelings?

I felt so sad... Very sad..

:'(

...busy like bee...

2011-04-17T13:07:00.000+08:00

...too busy to sms me but not too busy for others...

...left behind...

2011-03-19T09:55:00.002+08:00

Im feeling intense pain where I left my heart...

I left it to someone who doesnt love it..take care of it..appreciate it...cherished it.

A bare soul with nothing to love...a heart that is broken with empty love.

:'(

2011-02-01T15:55:00.002+08:00

....dun feel like going home....

Its just too much..emotions too overwhelming to control...

Feels so sad...

:'( :'(

...when 2011 feels like 2010 all over again...

2011-01-02T11:43:00.001+08:00

Wishes she never come back to singapore even if she misses home...

Its always heartbreaking to be home...

...fighting air...

2010-12-26T20:06:00.002+08:00

Thank u for opening my eyes..

After all of the times I went through just to be with you..it all means nothing.

Got scolded by parents when they said u weren't good for me and you were just playing with my feelings...i still stood by you.

I still stood by you no matter what negativity they said bout you cos i believe you would change...

But no u never realise that..

...wats left of me...

2010-12-24T08:29:00.001+08:00

Since that day..my pride..my dignity was crushed. A big part of me was gone..
It hurts so badly..i was aimless..
So crushed that i felt so foolish n stupid..thats hw u made me feel..
My emotions..my feelings for you were nothing..i was nobody..no one's somebody...i dun matter to u..
I wasnt the same anymore..i was just empty..it was hard to smile when my insides were broken..to tell myself i would b okay...it didnt just happened..
I was ashamed and embarassed..

...sorry seems to be the hardest word...

2010-12-22T20:49:00.003+08:00

Read an article today when i came across this:

'why is it so hard for some people to just say sorry? Why would they rather risk losing their loved ones?

I wouldn't want to risk losing my loved ones..that is why i apologise..they mean the whole world to me..

...cos you meant something...

2010-12-22T11:31:00.002+08:00

Eventhough my pride has taken a big blow..I am still holding on tightly..

I don't know if it will ever recover...

I feel embarassed and ashamed..

...shell...

2010-12-21T19:14:00.002+08:00

The day you have let go of my hand is the day i will walk away and NEVER look back. No matter how hardbreaking it feels..i will keep on walking...
Tears will flow..heart will break into million pieces..
Eventhough there is no apology..i have already forgiven you.

So many things going through my mind..i'll keep it a secret with me forever.

I'm just not worth your affections..care..and most important your love..

You left me with nothing..an empty shell walking the streets..void of emotions..

:'((

:'((

...move on...

2010-12-19T19:34:00.001+08:00

...As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back...

...its love...

2010-11-18T20:30:00.000+08:00

Love is when you shed a tear and still want him,
It's when he ignores you and you still love him,
It's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you,
When all you really do is cry...

...feel the blues...

2010-11-03T14:15:00.004+08:00

In pain~

Excruciating pain~

Kept tearing...

:'(

...i thought so....

2010-10-18T22:27:00.002+08:00

You did not even miss me did you?... Or did I miss the sign in all my blurness?...

Sigh~~

Why do I feel like I am grabbing the end of a stick??

Wishes it was all my wanderring thoughts and not reality...

...relieved...

2010-10-17T14:58:00.002+08:00

Felt relieved today and knowing im going to be okay..

Alhamdullilah..

Do you miss me?

...IMU...

2010-10-16T22:50:00.001+08:00

At my weakest...

I am missing you badly...

:(

Pray for your safe return.. Please..

:(

2010-10-15T17:46:00.001+08:00

Why does he seems to be crushing my crushed feelings whenever i meant good?

:'((

...arigatou...

2010-10-12T10:22:00.003+08:00

You grabbed my hands when i was drowning...

You made me realise how deep my feelings were...

You gave me life again...

You will always be the one...

You will always be inside my heart...

Now and forever...

...this is it...

2010-10-09T09:26:00.003+08:00

Thought i was strong to say goodbye...

Million pieces broken and never will be whole again...

Where do i go from here? I didnt expect it coming when i started it..

Im the victim too...

It hurts when people whom u dun know are saying thst you are stupid!...

It was good while it lasted... All thats left will be memories etched in me forever..

My first LOVE you will always be...

Goodbye my Dear~

...last goodbye...

2010-10-08T21:24:00.002+08:00

Never got to say a proper goodbye..

Should have hugged you one last time..

Shouldn't have worn my heart on my sleeves...

It hurts badly..

Its my walk of life..

I'm walking this path alone till ever after..

:"(

I'm sorry...

...glass heart...

2010-10-07T21:01:00.002+08:00

I wonder, will i ever settle down?

Its every gals dream...

My dream....

...a bad dream...

2010-10-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

:(

Had a bad dream....

I was alone...

:'(

...again...

2010-09-26T00:53:00.000+08:00

promises not kept again...

bummer...

not sulking but it doesnt feel good...

...disappointment...

2010-09-25T09:00:00.003+08:00

promises are meant to be kept...

it will get people hopes up and its something to look forward to...

not to be dashed in the next instance...

I will not fall for it anymore...

you just dun realise it, its disappointing...

I will be blamed for not being considerate...I Know..

...white flag...

2010-09-18T19:08:00.000+08:00

until my last breath...that will be the day I gave up.

...Forever...

2010-09-13T19:22:00.001+08:00

You're there by my side
In every way
I know that you would not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you

I may not say it half as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

So whenever you get weary
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down my love

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
Ohh we'll get there
This I swear...

...who ME?...

2010-09-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

tough journey...

my tots are wanderring far, to places i never tot of...

what do i mean to u? i still remembers clearly when i askd bout tings and the answer would b not interested...but it would b otherwise..its juz tat i found out frm somewhere...y? am i juz bothersome n trouble to u?? how can i understand when i dun understand at all...

i knw tat im a cruel, selfish and other tings...tings r juz not the same anymore n im not myself...

im always afraid to say someting cos i dun want to be accused n blamed for the tings ive never done...its hurtful :(

im not in the pink of health and its worrying me...my head always feels heavy and my heart burdened...

every moment is precious to me now and i want to make it last...

...tough...

2010-08-17T18:56:00.001+08:00

been having the toughest ramadhan...

hope all is well...

my heart is sad...

...left...

2010-07-30T18:49:00.003+08:00

...no more lunch appointments.
...no more meet ups.
...lesser outings.

and i'm not looking forward to my weekends anymore...its draining to keep thinking of what should have beens when it will not happen...

whats left???...
i wonder...

i'm missing myself soo much...where is ME?

...whats left of me...

2010-07-28T21:25:00.002+08:00

watch my life pass me by...
in the rear view mirror...
like a hunger, like a burning...
to find a place i've never been...
i've been dying inside...
little by little...
no where to go but out of my mind...
in endless circles...
fallin' faster, barely breathing...
give me something to believe in...
tell me its not all in my head...

...me...

2010-07-27T21:52:00.002+08:00

misses her old self...

...danger...

2010-07-27T21:52:00.001+08:00

pmsing is dangerous!

i juz cant control my feelings...

:(

...........................................

y do i feel so when i see couples around me??...i always wonder y i cant have someone like that...im nt saying that its perfect ...im juz envious and i always feels a pinch deep in me...

...again...

2010-07-27T21:52:00.000+08:00

another brush off yet again...

im immune to it already...

it must have been said to many...

who am i to say? ...i can only move onwards...

...lost...

2010-07-26T20:23:00.001+08:00

precious memories lost...im pretty sad about it.. ;(

...missing u...

2010-07-20T17:41:00.000+08:00

always...

:(

...truly...

2010-07-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

A man who truly loves u will never let go, no matter how hard e situation is..
A woman who truly loves u will be angry at u for so many things, but will stick around..

...little...

2010-07-06T19:58:00.001+08:00

how should i feel when someone belittle my feelings???.....

...braving the storm...

2010-07-03T12:59:00.002+08:00

what do i get in return for going through all this when all i receive from you is a scolding?!!

you never know what i did juz to get to you ASAP due to the unforseen circumstances...

why are my efforts is not return with a pat?...saying 'its okay, no worries'???

every problems always starts with me...do u know whats in my heart?

...the backup plan...

2010-07-03T08:39:00.001+08:00

should i go ahead with it???

cos my suggestions will juz be a failed plan....

...nippon...

2010-07-03T08:37:00.001+08:00

been craving for foods for the past week.....

have not got the time to get to it...anyone up for some japanese cuisine???

...lacking...

2010-07-02T22:17:00.002+08:00

i was always never good enough for you...

i've already did my best and always will...

....the naive me...what can i do :(

...the Day you MET me...

2010-06-29T20:56:00.004+08:00

its getting nearer...wanted to do somthing on that special day BUT the plan dun seem to fall in place becos of unexpected events happening...hmmm

wat should i do???...

...none...

2010-06-28T19:33:00.003+08:00

only with sincerity, the cheerfulness will fill her days...and the hurt will be lost...

technology doesn't count...

should she just give up waiting?...

she never did asked for anything else...she wonders....

...forgive and forget...

2010-06-27T19:17:00.000+08:00

...behind that cheerful smile is sadness.

...still...

2010-06-27T19:16:00.001+08:00

~ i'm still waiting...

...you got me...

2010-06-26T16:48:00.001+08:00

You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes
I can't pretend though i try to hide
I like you i like you

I think i felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and i can hardly breathe
You got me yeah you got me

The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours
It knocks me off my feet

Oh i just can't get enough
How much do i need to fill me up?
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that i've been dreaming of

I give up i give in i let go let's begin
'cause no matter what i do
Oh my heart is filled with you

I can't imagine what it'd be like
Living each day in this life
Without you without you

One look from you i know you understand
This mess we're in you know is just so out of hand

Oh i just can't get enough
How much do i need to fill me up?
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that i've been dreaming of

I give up i give in i let go let's begin
'cause no matter what i do
Oh my heart is filled with you

I hope we always feel this way
I know we will
And in my heart i know that you'll always stay

Oh i just can't get enough
How much do i need to fill me up?
It feels so good it must be love

I give up i give in i let go let's begin
'cause no matter what i do

Oh i just can't get enough
How much do i need to fill me up?
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that i've been dreaming of

I give up i give in i let go let's begin
'cause no matter what i do
Oh my heart is filled with you

Oh you got me you got me...
Oh oh you got me you got me...

...romeo & juliet...

2010-06-26T15:36:00.002+08:00

letters to juliet: The Greatest LOVE Story Ever Told Is YOUR OWN....

thought of watching this with someone i love...

it would be a GREAT story..

...always...

2010-06-26T14:18:00.000+08:00

u will always will be ....

still waiting...

...last...

2010-06-25T21:21:00.001+08:00

when i've made up my mind,there is no turning back...

...the hardest thing...

...fly away...

2010-06-25T19:23:00.001+08:00

am working my way towards going away from here...thanks for giving me the push!

gambatte!!

...troubled...

2010-06-19T22:04:00.001+08:00

my intuition doesn't feel too good...

is there something which she doesn't knows????

:(

...have beens...

2010-06-12T21:40:00.000+08:00

Feel a lil out that she could not went to support...

Feel a lil down that someone didnt send her a photo...

Y is she always pushed aside? when she wants to give her best?!

...broken...

2010-06-06T17:02:00.000+08:00

...my heart juz broke into a million pieces...

...hurts...

2010-06-05T13:06:00.001+08:00

'why does my chest hurts so much?....'

...scared...

2010-06-04T16:37:00.001+08:00

'how i wish that you could comfort me a little so i wouldn't be scared...'

...yet again...

2010-06-01T19:22:00.002+08:00

Today someone made me realise yet again that i'm truely no one to begin with cos we dun have any ties that binds us....

eventhough you might say it casually, a lil part of me feels the pinch...

Thanks, for making me realise what i never will have and achieve!

...stronger...

2010-05-30T18:37:00.002+08:00

"why do i always faint in the early morning?"...and it will take sometime for me to be aware of my surroundings...

gotta be strong no matter what happens...even its against me...gotta take it all in...

gotta be strong...dear GOD please help me be okay...

...comfort zone...

2010-05-30T17:18:00.001+08:00

When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk to walk beside you
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
When the night is dark and stormy
You won't have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

Sometimes when all your dreams may have seen better days
And you don't know how or why, but you've lost your way
Have no fear when your tears are fallin'
I will hear your spirit callin'
And I swear I'll be there come what may

When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk beside you
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
When the night is dark and stormy
You won't have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

I will come to you

'Cause even if we can't be together
We'll be friends now and forever
And I swear that I'll be there come what may
When the night is dark and stormy
You won't have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

We all need somebody we can turn to
Someone who'll always understand
So if you feel that your soul is dyin'
And you need the strength to keep tryin'
I'll reach out and take your hand

I'll reach out and take your hand

Oh I will come to you
When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk to walk beside you
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
When the night is dark and stormy
You won't have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

Oh I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

I will come to you,
Oh I will come to you...

...out of place...

2010-05-29T18:33:00.001+08:00

'the lonely soul walking down the streets alone...'

...tears juz streamed down her face observing people on a SATURDAY....

...not enough...

2010-05-29T10:05:00.003+08:00

"do you REALLY treasure and cherish me???"

its been on my mind a lot lately and i've been thinking that if its really pure then my path wouldn't be blocked...who should i ask then?? does the problem lies with U or ME?...

i deserved better and not being taken for granted??...

no matter how hard i try to hold on the pieces together, trying my best to do my BEST, it will all come down to your decisions...how you make me feel belonged and teasured and LOVED...

if the path is already this twisted, i believe that U will regret that one day if i am no longer YOURS...

the reason is simple, its becos you didnt hold on to me that tightly and treasure and LOVE me for who i am...only then u will realise ur LOSS and it will be too late...

...won't ever be...

2010-05-18T21:16:00.000+08:00

...she's juz not good enough for keeps...

:(

...hold me...

2010-05-16T12:39:00.000+08:00

~please hold me tight and never let go...i need to hear those comforting words~

:(

...blamed...

2010-05-15T14:21:00.002+08:00

i feel so lonely and alone..
people around me hates me and don't care about me...
they don't seem to mean what they have said...

can't control the tears that has been flowing...

its makin me depressed..

will i able to see the light again??

i need an answer..

...its always me...

2010-05-03T21:39:00.002+08:00

i am always the cause of everything that goes wrong...

you just dun know what went through my mind at that point of time and you just had to blow up on me...

it makes me even sadder than mad...

...just don't...

2010-04-25T11:30:00.001+08:00

"what if i told you i'm not alright?! what would you do then?...it's my life and happiness here you're talking about"

"...juz pls don't ask me anymore."

...you & i...

2010-04-25T11:26:00.002+08:00

...U...
You are the cause of my worry...
You are the cause of my happiness...
You are the cause of this roadblock of finding that happiness for our future...

...I...
I am trying to understand what causes it...
I am fighting for that happiness...
I will stay strong to overcome the roadblock for our happiness...

For my happiness and my FUTURE...

...though i know i must try...

2010-04-17T10:31:00.002+08:00

...the things we take for granted, we could sometimes lose...

...and if i promise not to feel this pain...

...will i see you again?...

...but i know i will make it through...

...26...

2010-04-17T10:29:00.000+08:00

...26 it will be...

...promise U...

2010-04-16T21:01:00.001+08:00

...i'm keeping the faith...

...the best in me...

2010-04-16T20:59:00.001+08:00

~ to love is nothing,to be loved is something...to be loved by the one you love is EVERYTHING~

...keep on moving...

2010-04-11T19:10:00.001+08:00

...thank u for being my motivation...

...i know i'm being selfish...

...i apologise...

...but i missed u dearly...

:(

...dearly missed...

2010-04-10T10:48:00.000+08:00

missing the laughter...

....

2010-04-09T06:58:00.004+08:00

...sincerity...

....

2010-04-09T06:58:00.003+08:00

...rushed...

....

2010-04-09T06:58:00.001+08:00

...self-centred...

....

2010-04-08T19:13:00.001+08:00

...temperament...

....

2010-04-08T06:58:00.000+08:00

...posession...

....

2010-04-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

...narcissist?...

...nothingness...

2010-04-07T19:24:00.000+08:00

i feel so empty...

...what ifs...

2010-04-07T19:20:00.003+08:00

i keep wondering...

"what if i didn't ask bout marriage, then i would have spent a lil more time with you"...

"what if i wasn't too caught up in my world, will my parents then give in?"...

"what if i talk to them more about things, will it then change everything?"...

....i'm juz wondering everyday, every minute and every second.

...lost...

2010-04-07T06:54:00.001+08:00

I don't have the rights to ask anymore...

Trust I cannot earned..

...tired...

2010-04-05T20:20:00.001+08:00

...i'm mentally exhausted...